I woke up at 4 a.m this morning and this is the first time that I can recollect being awake this early. Before going to bed last night, there was a lot of work to catch up on and things still pending to be completed from my list of To do’s for the week. I was never the person to sleep being completing things from my list. But last night I did.
Human Psychology has always been a field that interested me a lot. I have spent a lot of hours reading and understanding why people behave the way they do and how I should react and behave in certain situations. But until the situation actually presents itself before you, you hardly know what your reaction is going to be like.
Being loved a lot by a person is a great feeling. It makes you happy and want to spend more time with the person who wants to be there with you. You make changes to your life to be more around that person and that change slowly starts becoming a habit. A new good habit is always a good thing. A new habit which makes you happy is even better.
But what happens when things are not the same anymore? When the person you started to love does not feel the same way about you anymore? When the other person decides that it’s best to go separate ways?
It’s hard to accept words sometimes. No part of your mind / heart wants to hear them. But once a person decides, it is difficult to make them want to go back and re consider. Decisions are made out of reasons. Reasons you think can be reconsidered but reasons which are too big for the other person to even think about reconsidering.
Dealing with change takes time. Trying to get out of habit takes time. It takes time to make things whole again, as it should. I’m in no rush. I spent so much time trying to organise the life that I thought I wanted. It wasn’t the same as living.